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4月29日 Please Be kind...Well, this is my first affair, please be kind Handle my heart with care, please be kind This is all so grand, my dreams are on parade If you'll just understand, they'll never, never fade So tell me your love's sincere, please be kind Tell me I needn't fear, please be kind 'cause if you leave me, dear, I know my heart will lose its mind If you love me, please be kind This is my first affair, so [trumpet blast] a-please be kind Handle my heart with care, oh a-please be kind So tell me your love's sincere, yes, please be kind Tell me I needn't fear, please be kind 'cause if you leave me, dear, I know my heart will lose its mind If you love me, baby, please be kind 4月25日 Stop!!yes
Stop
look infront of u
look at"now"
not at the past
not at the future
look around you
take a chance to realize what you have been missing everyday
b4 these days, i used to have much room in my life
i had time to "feel"
feel the cold morning breeze
feel the warm sunshine
i used to stop to smell the flowers
used to stop and lsn to the birds singing
stop thinking
look around you
and feel it
feel the comfortable chair u r sitting on
feel the pillow under your cheek
feel the water runing through ur pharynx"msh wa2tee"
feel the air moving ur hair
feel the kiss on ur mother's hand
feel the hug of ur frnd
feel the tear in ur eye
give urself a chance to feel
i miss that
i miss"feeling"
but i just forgot!
forgot to feel
all i did was thinking
without feeling
get up in the morning washing my face n drinking the coffee
while thinking"i have 15 mins to go n then i'll do that n do this"
well...
let's have a different morning
but with the same actions
i get up in the morning on the voice of the flying birds
and the sunshine opens my eyes
i lsn to the birds
and thank God for getting up
for being able to lsn
and then i walk to the bathroom
thanking God for the ability to walk
and wash my face
feel the water on my skin
lsning to the sound of the runing water
seeing through the water
drinking my coffee
tasting it
smelling it
feeling the mug between my hands
put on my clothes
and feel the inscence of them
feel the soft silk on my skin
go down the street
lsn to my footsteps on the ground
walk slowly
notice everything around me
notice the green trees
and the butterflies
flying high
high
see my frnd
feel her hug
oh God
i've been missing much
is it the "aloneness"
hell no
wut is it then
it's me
i didn't give myself that chance
even b4 i sleep
i would revise the last thing i read
i've been so unfair to myself
and right now
am feeling the keyboard uner my fingers
an my fingers going here and there
knowing where every letter is
but never really felt it
why the "p" is a lil rough than the others
Lol
and now
am hearing the sound of the keys on the board
i know wut u will think of me right now
"probably the gurl has gone crazy, she must have lost her mind somewhere"
but God am loving it
try it urself
when u go out runing
b thinkless
try to b thinkless
o ed3eeli
only feel
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all around me are familiar faces, worn out places
worn out faces
riding early for the daily races
going nowhere
going nowhere
and the tears are filling up their glasses
no expression
no expression
hide my head i wana drawn my sorrow
no tomorrow
no tomorrow
and i find it kinda funny
find it kinda sad
the dreams in which am dying are the best i've ever had
find it hard to tell u
find it hard to take
WHEN PEOPLE RUN IN CIRCLES IT'S A VERY VERY MAD WORLD, MAD WORLD
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starring at the blank page before u
open up the dirty window
let the sun ilLuminate the words that you could not find
reaching
for something in the distance
so close you can almost taste
RELEASE UR INHIBITIONs
FEEL THE RAIN ON YOU SKIN
NO ONE ELSE CAN FEEL IT FOR YOU
ONLY YOU CAN LET IT IN
NO ONE ELSE, NO ONE ELSE
CAN SPEAK THE WORDS ON YOUR LIPS
DRENCH URSELF IN WORDS UNSPOKEN
LIVE UR LIFE WITH ARMS WIDE OPENN
TODAY IS WHERE YOUR BOOK BEGINS
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SO TELL ME DID U FEEL IT, HOW IT FELT??? 4月15日 My CollegeMy college it taught me life lessons b4 Academic studies i haven't been going there 4 long for months actually yet i've learned much i learned to thank God hundred times aday 4 the flu i had instead of complaining about it all day cuz i've seen others in gr8er gr8er pain yet they r still hopeful and thankful i learned to be grateful to the troubles i am in cuz it's nothing compared to others ppl there are so poor deadly sick can't even afford their daily food and might sleep without dinner however they still wana live they still hang on to life they still come to see the doctor and check to get better although they know that even if their health got better, there financial status won't the man could b dying of pain with cut off legs and blind and yet he comes to see the doctor he doesn't really see the doctor but he has hope he has faith he believes in God he knows that God is merciful he knows that God will make it up to him wether now or later he knows that God won't let him down i used to complain about the load of study i have to do or the work i have to do in the house or if am giving a helping hand i used to get mad and angry i was used to being desperate or hopeless well... when i saw those people compared to them i've never had problems when a man who has lost his son in a car accident and didn't get his right when he cann't afford it 4 his kids to get proper education when he has his kids working to support this family when he has a fatal disease , and the percentage of recovering is not more than 40% when he lives with his 7-membered family in one room living on one kind of food 4 a long long time living in a place that animals would refuse to adapt with and with all that he has his faith in God he has his hope a hope for a better life, or a better"after life" that was only one case and the place is full of cases much worse then y should i complain bcuz i have to get up at 5 to catch my lectures i am being very ungrateful that way y should i complain bcuz i have an exam everyweek while all i have to do is to lock myself in my room turn on the music and put my nose in my books with a v.good lightening and perfect atmospher 4 studying with loving, caring family with such gr8 parents y would i complain cuz i couldn't go out the other night cuz it was late while others wish if they can get in they r always out n wish if they have a place to stay in wo wo wo be thankful always be grateful and be sure the best is yet to come Thank Godhow can i start this
ok
the other day i was telling that guy
Thank God "COFFEE" is not forbidden
i meant it's a blessing that it's 7alal
away from all the drugs that gets u high"real high"
and the drinks that puts u in the right mood
Coffee comes first
God knows how much we r in need for it
y am i saying this
ok
i'll tell u
for me,
if there were no coffee in the world
then i probably should have slept like 12 hours aday
but i manage to sleep 6 hours aday
do u realise the difference
Coffee just saved half of my life
thanks to coffee
and thank God b4 all
for others......,
mmmmm
u tell me
y coffee is important to u?? 4月9日 Feels not methis feeling inside
it's brand new
i've learned in two weeks wut i haven't learnd all those years
in couple of days actually
two remarkable days in my life
but i donnu if i really enjoy this new change
i'll cut to the chase
i've been acting really different for a while
mmmmm
how can i tell u this
well
after some sort of experince i had
not only one but many at the same time
i just felt that i can't really "be myself"all the time
can't speak my mind all the time
and all of a sudden
i became a different person
each word and even each breath comes out of my mouth with a logical reason
like i can't say anything without considering the reasons, the situation and the consequences
that way i became less talktive
this might not b abvious online but it's too much clear in the outside world
as well my action
can't take anymove without thinking much n much of it
i don't mean i take alot of time thinking, but i just think much of it
and most of the time i step back
therefore less actions
well
i know this is the right thing to do
but when i do it subconciously
i feel like i am being fake
am not realy being fake am just thinking much
but i miss that spontaneous girl who made stupid funny mistakes and ppl didn't count it on her
considering the Good-well she had she didn't mean to hurt any1
i really miss that gurl
she was more fun
more open to life
but she was also somehow naive
and i tried to be her again
but i failed
i am just sticky to that new charachter
i think the new girl is the right one, the one who hasn't much to risk
but will the old one come back one day, i wish, but i am afraid
4月8日 Not yet "temporarly"Time 3:06 am Taking a sip of her coffee And looking back at the papers she had to do Late at night Alone in her small apartment And then she hears footsteps Some1 is trying with an iron gate Somehow she liked that sound of hitting iron It reminds her with something With that iron heart she was tryin’ hard to break in And then Moments of silence And then Other footsteps But this time they were closer They were footsteps in the same apartment “I am just imagining things” she said She grips the remote control Switching the TV on Just to make some noise So she doesn’t have to hear her fast heart beats or the footsteps in the corridor And on the TV Were 2 kissing A guy cheating on his gf with her best friend Although it was cheating It tasted too good She hated 2 b lonely She wanted any1 in her life But somehow she never met some1 she loved All men seemed the same Very much alike She needs some1 different Someone unique Some one who could catch her breath away Surprise her at every word he says She wanted to love some1 who could make a difference in her life She wanted to worship the ground he walks on She wanted him tough She wanted him kind She wanted him rude She wanted him gentle She wanted him flexible She wanted him hard to get She wanted him good looking She wanted him nasty She wanted him respectable She wanted him to want her She wanted him to reject her She wanted him to fall for her She wanted him to resist her She wanted him everything She wanted him one thing She wanted him her love And if she loved him He’ll be everything Cheating didn’t seem that bad after all One time won’t break the world down Then she hears her husband parking his car So she turns of the tv And gets back to her papers But this time With another idea…
4月3日 Egyptians r unbelievablethis is another story
bs ana mosh hatklem el mara dee
ento etkalemo
3lshan ana 5lst klamee
2day
also in the metro in my 2 college
i had so much ideas in my head and so much feeling in my heart
and i couldn't wait to come home n write it
so i just grapped a note book and started writing
i was writing in english
and my hand writing was pretty much like shit it was like --s----f-sdg----sg------
each 2 lines u can recognize a letter
i just kept writing n writing
and affter writting 5 pages
i raised my head
and
OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDD
there were like 7 ladies around me looking at me and at what am writing
i am sure they didn't understand what i wrote
but y did they gather to watch me aslan
homa malhom
l2 o elli y3'eez aktar
en lama kan fe wa7da mnhom betenzel
kanet bteegi wa7da tanya t2of mkanha 3lshan tshofni ana b3mel eh
o law kan el mkan ya5od kont l2eit 20 fo2 rasee beyboso mosh 7
lama gebt a5ree
i wrote"and surely the girl beside me is trying to understand what am talking about in this paper"
in a very clear hand writing
so the gurl felt embarassed and turned her head
bs i don't get it
lama homa mosh fahmeen 7aga
wala 3rfeen ye2ro 5atee
7ashreen rashom leeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeh
7d y2olee l2n ana kda gebt a5ree
ma kol wa7ed ye5alee f 7alo o 5las 4月2日 No Privacywut am sayin
might look weird
might look rude
might look stupid
but after all
it's funny
like everything else in life
ok here's the story
2day
when i was in the metro in my way backhome
i stood in the only empty space available,
grabbed my book n started reading
it was a book 4 anis mansour
n bcuz i was standing next to the door, and my station was the last
i turned back and asked a gurl who was standing just behind:
"nazla?"
i meant if her station was up next i would make a room for her
but she faked a smile and said"no"
n then she held my book and read the title"alklab abadn yadok, Anis Mansour"
and then she kept talking about the book
but what was the 1st question she asked
u guess
if u wana talk about a book
wut would b ur 1st question????
no
she asked"for how much did u get it"
from that moment i knew she doesn't really care about the book, but she's chatting for some other purpose
n then she kept talking about the writer
she said some new information
i didn't know about them so i didn't argue much
but she said something about him i was sure it was 100% wrong
and when i tired to stop her
she gave me that look of"hey, shut up, u kno nothing"
i said to myself loudly"never mind"in english""
then she kept talking and talking
mostly wrong information and ideas about the writer
and then she talked about the publisher
and then about history
but i just noded my head and kept reading
one thing i was sure of:
that gurl, or lady knew nothing about the writer
and she was not arguing and discussing to enhance her knowledge
but most apparently
TO SHOW OFF
i don't kno
i don't understand why she had to do this
may be she felt that i am better than her cuz i read
i never meant or said that
but she wanted to prove for herself and all the passengers that she knows much more than me
and she's ready for a challange
i really don't get it
why did she has to do this
i mean it looks sick
but i laughed after all
it's really funny
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